Paradigm and paradox
Aug. 23rd, 2006 08:39 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jaunthieIn the year-plus I've been blogging, I've noticed something about myself: the more I have going on internally that I'm trying to process, the less I post. This falls into the paradigm I grew up with, where you don't talk much if at all about the really deep, personal, emotional things going on in your life - and certainly not in an open public forum like a blog. But it's also a paradox, since it's at times like this that I need most to talk things over with others and NOT become all self-involved and introverted. Which is in turn a paradox to my paradigm of interacting less with the world around me when I have serious stuff I need to pay attention to internally.
The upshot is when I'm trying to process, I have less energy and attention to give to the blog and to the sorts of things I usually blog about.
I've noticed this paradigm and paradox in others who blog, too. Not everyone, but mostly; the more really serious stuff going on in their lives, the less likely they are to post about much of anything. There are a few notable exceptions, and I can certainly imagine situations where I might feel such an overwhelming need to get things off of my chest that I blog them or explode. But generally speaking, I guess for me blogs are for the everyday topics, the upper-stream of consciousness and awareness of society, and not for the deep emotional revelations - not even with "locked to friends only" turned on. The more churn I'm dealing with, the less I'm churning out, writing- and communication-wise.
So I'm posting a little less right now - not because there aren't lots of things for me to post about, but because I just don't have the bandwidth available to post.
We now return you to your regularly scheduled programming.
The upshot is when I'm trying to process, I have less energy and attention to give to the blog and to the sorts of things I usually blog about.
I've noticed this paradigm and paradox in others who blog, too. Not everyone, but mostly; the more really serious stuff going on in their lives, the less likely they are to post about much of anything. There are a few notable exceptions, and I can certainly imagine situations where I might feel such an overwhelming need to get things off of my chest that I blog them or explode. But generally speaking, I guess for me blogs are for the everyday topics, the upper-stream of consciousness and awareness of society, and not for the deep emotional revelations - not even with "locked to friends only" turned on. The more churn I'm dealing with, the less I'm churning out, writing- and communication-wise.
So I'm posting a little less right now - not because there aren't lots of things for me to post about, but because I just don't have the bandwidth available to post.
We now return you to your regularly scheduled programming.
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Date: 2006-08-23 11:26 pm (UTC)Looking forward to seeing you again when life (yours and mine) eases up a bit!